Since my surgery in Dec 05 (brow lift and upper eyelid reconstruction) and having been on medication (antibiotics and seriods (eeek), well my skin was great for a while after the antibiotics but after that wore off, I started getting a few breakouts, especially before my period when my hormones are up in the air.

I started using Sulphur (homeopathy) 6c and that really helps in healing the break outs almost immediately (thankfully).

I haven't posted on this blog for a while and thought i'd start posting again ....

Skin today per usual mega oily (sighs).  Have a zinger underneath my lip which hurts like crazy - those are always the worst ones though thankfully it's already on its way out and it only got here a day or so ago.  I spend so much time in my cleansing routine and always make sure that I never go to sleep without taking off my make up and cleansing really carefully as I find that if I'm not thorough, I tend to get spots / acne and I can't be doing with that anymore, not at my age .

 

I ordered Jane Iredale mineral make up which arrived today; though doh me, I don't know how to use the liquid foundation!!!  I'm experimenting as I find that Sheer Cover is a little too expensive at £60 every three months or £20 approx per month and I never use their moisturiser or wash that comes with it; which I'm sure I'm paying for; so did a search on the net for mineral foundation in UK and came up with Jane Iredale. 

 

I rang the Jane Iredale supplier in the UK today and was advised of a local shop that stocks Jane Iredale supplies in Blackheath village which isn't too far from me so I'm going to go and stock up on Saturday and perhaps hopefully have a make up lesson and especially help in choosing the right colours as I'm sure that my colours aren't that spot on! 

 

Lots of ideas jumping around in my head regards redesigning and adding to the Acne Support Group in Cyberspace website and I will put these into place over the weekend.  Anything to keep that inner voice / creative voice inside me silent !!!  So watch this space!  I have lots to do re painting the house inside and out but while I'm on this 'roll' re the website design, I'm going to follow my instincts as I've neglected the site for so long.  Once I'm done designing I'll let everyone do their own thing again and support each other.  I do feel 'bad' about not being able to moderate anymore but I need to take care of my own needs and not caretake so much.  That's loving the self !

 

Otherwise, it's been a good day today; apart from really oily skin. 

 

Thx for listening  
Just Me

 

p/s I am quite enjoying sharing my thoughts in this journal; it feels good and freeing to be able to just express my feelings; like talking to an old friend ... that's what diaries / journals are all about.  I am going to start a journal on my new age site as well and share with the regulars there who will be so excited about it as we haven't been able to touch base online as much as we used to in the past (sighs) - time just flies and journalling will be a way of keeping in touch with each others lives without feeling the need to reply; only when we wish to .... I especially like that I can play around with the designs .... much better than the Oprah Winfrey online journal site .. though I do like the pictures there that they let you put on your journals   Gotta catch some zzzzzzzzzzs now !! It's a 5am Hatha Yoga call tomorrow!!  Argh! (grins)

Strangely after such a weird freaky weekend acne and facial wise, today was an okay day.  Make up managed to cover the bruise marks from the Perlane injections still remaining over a week ago and I am starting to see the positive effects of the filler; even though it did cause me to break out in a bit of acne around the mouth corners (grrrr!).

Skin was mega oily today per usual and I find it so frustrating to have to keep blotting all the time and wondering whether or not someone is staring at me cos my nose is too oily cos I've forgotten to blot or cos of something else.  I get paranoid sometimes; and especially so when I go to the bathroom and find that I have a shiny oily nose like rudolph the reindeer!!! which stands out a mile.  No one in my office building (and I work for a huge, huge, hugeeeeee firm, seems to have oily skin and/or if they do, I certainly can't see it.  The oil I produce on my face could fill a tin of sardines and keep them moist!

This Sheer Cover make up that I'm using seems weird at times, ie the colours seem to keep changing on me - one minute it's a little too dark a shade and another it seems too light a shade - verrrry strange .

My period is due in the next couple of weeks or so and you betcha my hormones are going to kick in soon and I'll be spotty and blotchy and fingers crossed I will have no acne and just spots as I can deal with spots but not pus-filled huge crater filled acne!

Thx for listening!  Just Me

 

Today I'm feeling blue  from time to time.  Growing fairly weary of looking at my face in the mirror and having to spend so much time just to make myself look presentable to the world out there.  I long to just be able to wash and go instead of having to do all that I do just so my scarring isn't noticeable and also now that I'm in my late thirties there's the added not needed issue of lack of collagen and laughter lines creeping in and sagging skin .

My mother looked at a before photo of myself before I took my Perlane Filler injections last week and she commented that I am not photogenic at all (grins).  I have a chipmunk face ie fat cheeks - always have since a child and people used to love to pinch my cheeks which I absolutely hated!!  Though my mother said that the Perlane has helped my looks in that my face now looks thinner.  Strange cos I personally can't see that.  I still have black and blue marks where the injections were and it's obvious to me.  Today, tired of putting on make up and went without and stayed at home, not wanting to go out. 

I can't wait for my Isolagen injections which will most likely be September/October this year; with my biopsy being in July.  If it adds 10 years to my looks, that'd be great - ie just to be able to look 'normal' and lead a 'normal' life instead of cringing each time someone looks at me and thinking ok he/she must be looking at how bad my acne scarring is etc.  Acne and the scarring has such a bad effect on the self esteem and perhaps has made me into the person I am today ....(sighs) .... a good thing at times I guess as people feel very comfortable with me .... though at times I could do with a bit more assertiveness in real life ....

Thanks for the space to be able to share my thoughts

Just Me

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